holding my frustrations within

went out with my bloody file wishing that i was anywhere but here (mostly home with my wife) ...on the way met one of my colleagues smiled and said something pleasant...never registering that i had said anything at all...all the while wanting to just bash his head in with my bloody file ...flight landed...went outer still (always wanted to say outer instead of more out or some gibberish whatsoever)...so my flight landed ....wanted to just throw the bloody file on the apron and stomp up and down on it until bits and pieces fell apart....fisted my hands a couple of times and then went and did the flight...found that i still actually enjoyed it...barely

my hand at it

yesterdee while the dung beetles were crawling all over the shitty mess that i made while i was picking a fight with my inner turmoil (which of course my inner turmoil won...but hell i gave a fight that was worth an Arthurian knight) , the sun set over the bloody horizon...as the stars cluster fucked with the upcoming imminence of doom i lay down and slept..

no time no time ..

somebody better read this

snakes right outside our High court

yesterday i on occation had to go to Dhivehiraageyge High Court...since my last visit there the place had gotten some structural modifications...so enough with the bush beating...

well anyway as i tried to open (which clearly stated that this was the High Court) the entrance door to the place there was this hissing sound behind me...in fright, with my heart racing i looked behind me imagining the worst...behind me stood a man/guard/snake and he was pointing to a door futhur along...

so in quite relief i walked to that door and started to open that one(this one had a smaller sign board stating the obvious), even succeeded in opening it partially when that hissing sound came again...i froze thinking i was a gonner this time(might have even peed in my pants if i hadn't peed a while earlier)...i looked back and the guard was pointing to an entrance still futher along...

and that finally led to where i wanted to go (away from the hissing and that man/guard/snake)...funny thing was this entrance did not have a sign board at all...imagine all the people that had to go through that nightmare before...

sorry this sounded too much like a narration

saw it and loved it

Adam Sandler - Grow Old with You
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you.
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growin old with you.
I'll miss you, kiss you, give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you, feed you, I'll even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in the kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man to grow old with you.
I wanna grow old with you.

short skirts, well oiled legs and wedding parties

if you want to see the trio together then the obvious thing to do is to get invited to a wedding party...( o crash one if you were upto it, the choice is obviously yours ) ...short skirts and well oiled legs, the main attraction at wedding parties these days, the center of attraction infact (even more than the wedding couple as it happens)....

those smooth legs just makes you want to reach out feel that smoothness... see if its for real..see if the gleam in them is for real...by the way in my experiance just looking at them isn't too bad either ( just looking at them being my only option )....

u forget about what you were eating...spill your drink on yourself ( and never notice that you have spilled )....forget that your mom, your sister or even your wife is sitting right next to you while you are drooling and popping your eyes out at those well oiled gleaming legs with utter facination....oh! boy it would happen to the best of us.....

and the best thing is, sometimes as it happens theres more than one of these facinations roaming around....yup get filled up in several places at once...and sometimes ( very rarely if you dont be very careful ) you even make little moaning sounds in your throat...and when the person next to you looks at you in mock horror, you make as if a piece of what you were eating got stuck in your throat...and then of course there are the day dreams...

new year and new found intoxications

new year came with a bang actually...and somewhat undesirable circumstances...and the title is the limit that I'm willing to blog about the said circumstances...enjoyed my time with my good buds and that's that...

shucks...i don't even want to talk about last year because the only thing that matters now is how it ended...I'm not proud of myself (so long all the happy stuff that happened to me last year)

actually i never did intend to write about new years anyway...i was going to write about how it all began, but that will have to wait for a later time...i close my eyes, look in to my life and its frightening...for the first time in so long a time I'm frightened for my life and people that are in my life.

hard times await...God help me