holding my frustrations within

went out with my bloody file wishing that i was anywhere but here (mostly home with my wife) ...on the way met one of my colleagues smiled and said something pleasant...never registering that i had said anything at all...all the while wanting to just bash his head in with my bloody file ...flight landed...went outer still (always wanted to say outer instead of more out or some gibberish whatsoever)...so my flight landed ....wanted to just throw the bloody file on the apron and stomp up and down on it until bits and pieces fell apart....fisted my hands a couple of times and then went and did the flight...found that i still actually enjoyed it...barely